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Archive for July, 2007

Sick As A Dog

July 30, 2007 By: admin Category: Body, Fatblogging, Food, Health, Living, Running

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Food poisoning. Ugh… You can’t imagine. I’ll spare the details cuz they’re disgusting, but will say that I was up most of the night hurling so hard I sprained all the muscles in my back. I shit you not. On a side note, I’ve definitely dropped those last few pounds I was looking to run off by August.

M. took care of me, tried to get something in me but everything just came right back up. This morning is much better. No nausea, no puking, just my back. I’m having miso soup and gatorade. :)

5 1/2 Hour Haze

July 25, 2007 By: admin Category: General

On the bus to the airport after only a bit of sleep. Some insight: Nine Inch Nails is VERY interesting to listen to in this state 😉

Rain

July 23, 2007 By: admin Category: Body, Fatblogging, Health, India, Running, Video

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No running today. Too much rain — I don’t want to muck up the Magic Shoes!!! It’s alright, though, because Michael and I went for a long, tough walk on the beach in Edgartown yesterday. He wanted to see the breach that had developed between MV and Chappaquidick due to storm surge a few months ago. Normally, “Chappy” is connected to Edgartown’s South Beach by a thin strip of sand that you can drive over. Now that strip of sand is gone and has been replaced by rough, deep water. It was cool to see even if it did take a rough, 30-minute walk through deep sand to get there. On the way back we swam in the warm, low-tide water, so that was a good payoff.

This morning, my amazing friend Alison, who runs Uddami, a computer school in Kolkata, West Bengal, sent a newsletter about the school’s recent activities. It includes a link to the video I made about the school for Netscape. In fact, Alison has also placed the video on the homepage of Uddami! This is a great, great honor…Thank you, Alison!!!

The Uddami video and all the others I shot while in Kolkata in January will be going up onto AOL India soon. Check back to my blog for an update!!!

“SiCKO”

July 22, 2007 By: admin Category: Body, Cooking, Fatblogging, Food, Health, Living, Running

Don’t wait. If you’ve ever had a sniffle, or sprained your ankle, or had triple-bypass go immediately and see this movie:

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Don’t listen to anyone who hasn’t seen the movie yet, just GO. There are a ton of people out there who are afraid to find out what Michael Moore has taken great pains to tell us: that we are being slowly and systematically killed. Think I”m joking? See the movie…

Thank you, Mr. Moore.

23 Minutes, Longer Route

July 20, 2007 By: admin Category: Body, Fatblogging, Health, Living, Running

I ran past wet, brown leaves this morning on my new route. Instantly I was taken back to childhood when Mom would wake us up in the dark to get ready for school. It was already cold outside, but smelled of fresh, damp Autumn leaves. I loved that smell. Sweet, cozy.

In other news, Michael and Laura came down to the island yesterday and Michael and I discovered that his finger is a perfect fit for our grandfather’s freemasons’ ring. Eerie…

27 Minutes and Bleeding

July 18, 2007 By: admin Category: Body, Fatblogging, Food, Health, Living, Randomosity, Running

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Magic shoes still kicking ass!

So, running during your period is tough. Now I know. For that and because my joints and muscles are starting to show their wear, I will be taking a day of rest tomorrow. But! today’s run was still great. :) It took longer because I had to make three stops for passing cars and because my pace was slowed due to CRAMPS, okay??? Still, I felt the power growing in my legs and my blood pumping steadily with every step, encouraging me to keep going. My legs are getting leaner and strong, and my but is doing more work than it ever has. Hope fully I’ll be able to address my currently neglected upper body soon as well.

This running thing has become something of a zen fro me. I work things out while I run, am training myself to think slower, calmer, less impulsively. It feels like church, or what I imagine a positive church experience must be… I feel faith in my goals growing when I run, as if getting physically stronger and more agile makes me spiritually, mentally stronger. Anyway, I’m liking it a lot and will keep going. 30/35 minutes by the end of the summer!

Randomosity: check out these amazing pix of Antarctica!

23 Minutes

July 17, 2007 By: admin Category: Body, Fatblogging, Health, Living, Running

Well, I can’t believe I did this, but I ran 23 full minutes today! The magic shoes are still performing! I feel amazing even though M says that there will be some go-go days and some downer days. I had one of those last week. I couldn’t take a step without my chest burning. I did my shitty, little 16 minutes and that was it. But today was not one of those days! Today I was an athlete, for real. I’m starting to feel the muscles in my legs pushing me along rather than the fat slamming into my butt. I’ve also confirmed that my extra 2 pounds from last week WERE, indeed, bloating. Quelle surprise, no? My period started today and I’m all slim again. Water-retention, what a fuckin’ pain in the ass…

I Would Have Cried Bloody Murder

July 15, 2007 By: admin Category: Mom

Last night I had a dream that it was me in the hospital room when Mom died. I tried hard, in the dream, to imagine what I would have done. Exactly. And I think I would have snapped. I think I would have cried and cried and cried so much that someone would have had to have called Michael or Dad to come and get me. I think the sobs that wracked me in the months afterward, the sobs only Molly has heard, would have all come out right then and there and it would have felt like the worst hangover that there is. Pounding, pounding, pounding headache.

I will never get over this. I will never not miss you. I look at your picture and I’m thrown back to the last night I had there with you. I didn’t sleep more than 5-10 minutes at a time, if that. I kept waking up because you made these terrifying sounds, like you were choking. What if I had been there and heard your last breath? I would have cried and begged you to come back, just for an instant, so I could be there, looking into your eyes as you drifted away. I would cried bloody murder.

I want you back.

Eventually

July 15, 2007 By: admin Category: Faith, Mom, Music

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I broke down on cue. It had been building up all day. Like a warrior, or a good liberal blue-blood, I did my best to keep it in. But no matter what happened, today would always have been the 2-year anniversary of my mother’s death.

On a positive note, I saw something surprising that warmed my heart more than I have words for. If the moment were a Queen I would have knelt before her and said: “I am here to serve.” There are no ordinary moments.

+3 Minutes

July 14, 2007 By: admin Category: Body, Fatblogging, Health, Running

I have a new running route.

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I like to start new things like this at the beginning of a week so I have a full 6-7 days of trying it out. The new route has added 3 minutes to my time and forced me to develop a cool mind set. In order to motivate myself to keep going, I look up at the route instead of down at the ground. I use my peripheral vision to make sure I don’t trip over a speed bump of some other obstacle. I look at the road ahead and just keep breathing. Next, I try to slow my mind down by a doing a sort of waking meditation. I think about some of the things I love–like M–and concentrate on thinking about those things sloooooooowllllllyyyyy.

I don’t know why, but it works. I can get through 19 minutes now.

I’ll keep this routine until next weekend and then will consider upping my time a little bit more. How all this enthusiasm and technique will fare back in searing-hot CA I have no idea, but I think I’m building enough fundamentals to see me through being able to run anywhere. That, and weight loss, are the main goals. :)

This afternoon I’ll do the Christiantown hike before joining Dad and Sarah for a Bastille Day party! We’re going to sing the Marseillaise!